I
often think of you
with a yearning intensity which amazes
even me!
Lying on my bed… exhausted
… unable to sleep
My throat choked with a sob of loneliness
I imagine you
In the other world
Waking up
In a white bed on a crisp sunny morning
Going about your business
Pausing
Pausing just for a moment
To think of me
And once again
Going about your business
My own thoughts hurt me
Me – thinking about you with a helpless craving all the time
And
you giving me just a pause and passing on
But then
That is how things are!
You are you
And
I am me
And I’ve lost yet another battle to fate
I’ve lost battles before
But I’ve not been demolished so completely
My battle weary shoulders bear a testimony
That
This was my last battle
And
I lost it
Now I want to rest
To sleep
Not to be disturbed from a deep dreamless slumber
Ever, Ever, Ever.