I Remember Your Smile

Smile

I still think about your smile

When the speck of a dimple formed on your cheek

And your lips spread  to the corner of your face

 

Remember how I liked to kiss you at the corners of your lips at such times.

You seemed so beautiful, so childlike beautiful and your smile turned broader, the dimple deepening and then evaporating.

 

A fist squeezes my heart inside

and I die a little

That’s the feeling with which

I remember your smile.

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The Last Battle

I

often think of you

with a yearning intensity which amazes

even me!

 

Lying on my bed… exhausted

… unable to sleep

My throat choked with a sob of loneliness

I imagine you

In the other world

Waking up

In a white bed on a crisp sunny morning

Going about your business

Pausing

Pausing just for a moment

To think of me

And once again

Going about your business

My own thoughts hurt me

Me – thinking about you with a helpless craving all the time

And

you  giving me just a pause and passing on

 

But then

That is how things are!

You are you

And

I am me

And I’ve lost yet another battle to fate

 

I’ve lost battles before

But I’ve not been demolished so completely

My battle weary shoulders bear a testimony

That

This was my last battle

And

I lost it

 

Now I want to rest

To sleep

Not to be disturbed from a deep dreamless slumber

Ever, Ever, Ever.