Of Stillness and You

Dream of a lifetime came true

When in the world of stillness,

I met you.

Where the sound of your payal was echoed by stillness,

Where the message in your eyes was conveyed in stillness,

Where your voice evoked a reply of stillness.

Where the trees whispered in stillness,

Birds hopped in stillness,

And blossoms swayed in stillness.

Where only and I moved

And the world watched us,

The still world of chinars, koyals and peach blossoms

Thus was the bliss

of having fallen in love

With stillness…and you.

To The Love of My Life

It happened suddenly.
Out of the blue.
Singing a song, going around,
Suddenly – the dam burst.
The tears flowed.
The body shook.
The sense of loss, the sense of distance overwhelmed me.
And I realized what I had lost.
That despite the cheerful exterior that I maintained,

How miserable I felt.

Is it my fate to be always unhappy?
Sighing when with you.
And crying when not.

There is so much to say.
So much to hear.
So much to feel.
So much to understand.
One day and one night spent with you,
How can it quench the thirst of so many years.
You are the love of my life.
It will take me a life time to get over you.

Remembering You Again

Sometimes,

With an involuntary movement of mine,

I stun myself.

Cover my face with both my hands and go dizzy.

 

For the movements,

Are yours.

Yours alone.

–   Shrugging both the shoulders with a mischievously innocent smile,

–   Saying nope,

–   Starting every sentence with a ‘ pata kya,’

Maybe these movements, these expressions make me understand,

–   When I adopt them in my tender moments,

–   What your tender moments were like.

 

Look, it ended,

As I predicted.

With me remembering your sweetness,

And you hating me!

I Am In Love With Someone Else

The cool and fresh morning air tickled my ear & kissed my lips and said I love you.

The dew-kissed fragrant rose smiled at me, and sparklingly said I love you.

The creamy blue sky looked down at me and bowing her head said I love you.

The cool and shady plush green tree waved at me and winked at me and said I love you.

The endlessly vast roaring sear rushed at me and touching my feet and said I love you.

The remotest and smallest night star twinkled shyly at me and said silently I love you.

The silvery placid moon gazed sleepily at me and softly whispered I love you.

 

I said

 

To the air

To the rose

To the sky

To the tree

To the sea

To the star to the moon

 

That though yesterday,

I was in love with you.

But today,

I’ve fallen in love with someone else.

You

Today,

You asked me,

What do I think of you.

What really are you to me.

I meditated

I pondered

I thought

Perhaps,

You are like

A rose petal that has flown on air into a heap of smoldering ashes

Perhaps

You are like

A rain drop – the first one – which strikes the rain parched earth

Perhaps

You are like

The first gust of air that enters a room opened after a long long time

Perhaps

You are like

The lights of his hometown a traveler sees tired after a long arduous journey

Perhaps

You are like

The all enveloping warmth that greets a person reaching home safe from the chill outside

Perhaps

You are like

The sudden emergence of the colour red after lots of grey

Perhaps

You are like

An evening bath after a hot weary day

Perhaps

You are like

A kiss of the beloved on the eyelids and the sweet sleep it induces after a long sleepless night

Perhaps

You are like

A favorite song heard suddenly after a long long time

Perhaps

You are like

A healing touch, a comforting kiss on a painful bruise

That is how

I think of you

That’s what

You are to me

Now you know!

The Wait

The mood is melancholy,

The ambience sad.

The soul is weary,

The body tired.

 

I think about you,

But my thoughts have dried.

I murmured your name

And then I cried

 

In the last of moment of the agony,

Someone died.

 

Just because,

I waited for you,

in vain.

 

Falling In Love

Lying on my bed,

Alone,

I think of you

 

How I would love to run my fingers through those curls.

Kiss your fair throat.

And hold you tight in my arms.

And

I am choked with desire.

My thoughts turning into a pain.

A searing pain of desiring you.

 

I switch off my thoughts,

And transcend in to your mind.

And try to think your thoughts.

 

What are you thinking of

–   Today?

–   The poem?

–   The party?

–   The pact?

And then wonder,

If at all I am anywhere in your thoughts.

 

The thought of this thought is scary.

and

I am afraid.

 

Perhaps it may still turn out to be a situation,

Where love on one side,

Is reciprocated by mockery on another.

 

I get quiet,

And transcend back to my thoughts.

Try to switch you off.

And find,

I can’t do that.

I am

Hopelessly and miserably,

In love with you.

So help me God!